Dialogue Between a Stranger to Joy and a Stranger to Fear

Did I lose all my angels when I tried to end my life and when I dropped and cursed Your name did it make You ashamed to call me Your own son and in my mother’s womb, unborn and nonexistent, was I better then?
Was it better then? When I wasn’t around

I am sitting here in the blazing sun while my eyes are filled with water and my hand is filled with pills and my aching mind is thinking “Ain’t it great that I can go to sleep and wake up in the morning, start all over again
with Your graces anew?

After all
I’m sitting in the blazing Son"

And I will soar on Your wings just like the angel that I am in You and though these mountains take up all my sight I’ll hold on tight and fly up to the sky as the birds go by and the stars as they lighten up my night
You lighten up my night

Ain’t it pretty?

"You didn’t lose all your angels when you tried to end your life and when you dropped and cursed My name I looked at you and smiled and said “Oh well I know he’s coming home so I’m not going to worry and he’s better than...
better than he thinks he is”"

I've always been a nervous guy
Gotta straighten my jacket and fix my tie
I'm happy, anxious, sad and scared
Who could want a man impaired?

I want to see inside your heart
See every wound and every scar
Know every bit of who you are
But, really, I want to be a part

Will you hold my hand and walk with me?
I want to hold your hand and walk with you

I feel at home in your embrace
Perfect comfort, perfect peace
I want to make you my new home
I want to have you for my own

All I have is only dreams
And I've placed my dreams right at your feet
So gently carry on your way
With my dreams embedded in your street

I'm gonna rattle my bones and shake my frame
Gonna put it all together and make it okay
I'm gonna clean my tongue and straighten my act
Gonna be the one and take it all back
Cause I don't want to walk without you